Receiving Herself

She was scared.

Sad.

Not knowing why

She felt so bad.

Striving

In pain.

Forcing and pushing

Herself in vain.

Feelings too strong.

Pressure to be.

Rejecting emotion.

Shaming sensitivity.

She competed

With no one else

But her own

Unreachable standard

Of a ‘worthy’ sense of self.

Grasping and yearning

And pushing.

Forcing.

Grasping.

Yearning.

Pushing.

Forcing.

Life and herself

To be more and whole and fine

Her masculine, to excel.

Controlling.

Denying the flow.

Unable to

Let go.

She is us.

She is her.

The feminine starved.

The goddess hidden.

Forced.

And.

Not forgiven.

Yearning to be

Someone

That is not her.

That she never could be.

Until

That moment.

Of release.

Of feeling at ease.

Accepting all emotion.

Feeling it all flood in.

Embracing her sensitivity.

Expressing everything.

Drenched in the sensual bliss.

Allowing life to be as it is.

Receiving herself.

Claiming her art.

Discovering her soul

Her true beauty...

That melting heart.